Holiday started & It's Chinese New Year

Feeling weird right now..
It should be hot during CNY
Instead, it's cold
I'm kinda cold here

I don't understand why
But my feelings are kinda complicated right now
Firstly, school.
I can't find the problem
But I don't feel good about it

Second, my work
So. I'm working three days a week
And something pop out
And I'm working for two days ONLY
Sigh
I don't think I'll fall sick so easily
But everyone is afraid I'll collapse someday, somehow
I don't understand...
Guess I'll just follow the flow
Hope everything turns out right

Homeworks from school are piling up
I've really gotta start working into it
By the way, my kakak (maid) is going back after CNY
And she's not coming back
She's been taking care of me
Since I'm born
14 years
Imagine the bond there
She's the one comforting me when I'm stressed with my mom's HIGH expectation

I don't understand
My mom stress me out sometimes
Why can't she be like other moms
Why can't she just be satisfied when I bring a B home
She won't be satisfied easily..
jeez
When I get an 80 marks, She wants a 90..

For god's sake
It's CNY
I should be happy
But this CNY doesn't feel like it
I guess I'm still a bit primary-sick
It's been 1 year and now is the 2nd year
I'm missing them
we don't really contact each other now
But thinking back was thrilling
We spent like so many years together
Bullying, provoking and argue-ing so many years
I wonder if the other party will miss this

I really can't find another someone to take over the other party's place in my heart
I do enjoy having you protecting me over the another person, who kinda like me
You'll stick near
I enjoyed that, even if I brushed you off once
guess I overreacted

CNY coming..
I do hope I won't get fat
I'll just put my focus into St. John
Let's hope that my biggest mission after CNY won't be "Keeping myself from bursting out of my Full-U"
God, please help me~
=3

Okay, dudes
ENJOY YOUR CNY
God bless us ladies notta be FAT~

Muacks~