If I can travel back to time, I'll go without hesitation

I'm serious
I'll go without hesitation
If I can really be friends with you once again
I'll rather to have not met him
It hurts
Sometimes words are terrifying
They stay in hearts forever, not removable

I do know that I'm childish
I do hope I can change
No one hopes to be childish, including me
I do hope there's one day I'll become more mature
And be able to have my head held up high, saying that I'm mature
But I guess I'm born with it, and I'm stuck with a character that I didn't really like

I do hope people will like me
No one wants anyone to hate them
If I can travel back in time,
I'll cherish every moment
And make sure I'll never know him

Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because things have changed too much
I guess this is my situation
Even though it's hard to even get our eyes to meet together
I'll try my best
Friendship is, more important than anything
I'll never ask for your forgiveness
As I am the person that's wrong 1st

I'll just have my finger cross and ask for god to be at my side
So, you'll maybe just,
Look at me and have a little curve in your lips
Or maybe a normal conversation
I'll just ask for these two things
I know I'm selfish
But please, forgive my selfishness