Someone to talk every night. :')

Somehow I'm just grateful I can be myself in front this person.
Saying what I want, saying out my mind.
And of course, being somehow rude but in a funny way of rude.

:目
Sometimes I think it's just so not worth it for that person to this thing to me
I'm not worth it you know.
That's what I told that person.
But nothing's changed.

But I'm just still being cautious
Afraid of saying something wrong.
I'm afraid. Of what people see in me.
But I'm better now. It was worse.
:(
But there's still some barrier I put upon myself
Somehow leaving a little gap.
A barrier which somehow couldn't be penetrate.

Sometimes,
I hope you won't be so caring towards me,
Don't worry about me.
I'll be just fine, really.
It's really not worth all the trouble to you.

I'm just afraid I'll rely on a person too much
And lose a little bit of myself.
And that's what I'm trying not to do with so much thing happening around me.

Sometimes, I wonder
Who am I? How am I?
I actually forgot.
But people change.
I changed. And I know it.
But I still wonder.
How was the me last time?

I'm trying to change, to a better me.
But I'm progressing, little by little. :)
And of yeah,
Don't worry about me.
I'm strong, or, I'll just try to be strong.
My looks are safe,
So I guess no harm will come upon me.


你懂嘛
我就爱逞强
因为我懦弱够了
该学会坚强不依赖人了。