Confidence And Depression.

It's just sometimes I feel like I am so weird.
Being confident is in my nature.
I'm confident in things I'm doing,
But nowadays,
It just seems like it's different somehow.

And I really wonder where is the old me.
Maybe it's time I learn more from people,
And keep my flaws with me.
Waiting for the day I'll be flawless.

Today,
I can't see the radiant sun shining in my room.
It's raining in the morning.
Now I know why is it so comfy. :)

I love rain.
The cooling touch of the rain,
Just sweeps away some of my thoughts.
And there I am,
Thinking too much again.

Being confident.
I guess it's a good thing.
But being overconfident ain't a good thing to do.
So now,
I'll try to restrain myself.
Watch me grow, watch me improve.
:)

Hmm.. Nowadays I'm kinda into blogging again. 

It's just a place where I dump my frustration and misery into.

Using words to replace thoughts,

Changing thoughts into words.

Not like there'll be people reading though. 

I barely see my own blog.

I just update update then I'm off.

There's so much homework I worry I'll die doing them.

:)  

So yeah,

I'm off. 

Someone to talk every night. :')

Somehow I'm just grateful I can be myself in front this person.
Saying what I want, saying out my mind.
And of course, being somehow rude but in a funny way of rude.

:目
Sometimes I think it's just so not worth it for that person to this thing to me
I'm not worth it you know.
That's what I told that person.
But nothing's changed.

But I'm just still being cautious
Afraid of saying something wrong.
I'm afraid. Of what people see in me.
But I'm better now. It was worse.
:(
But there's still some barrier I put upon myself
Somehow leaving a little gap.
A barrier which somehow couldn't be penetrate.

Sometimes,
I hope you won't be so caring towards me,
Don't worry about me.
I'll be just fine, really.
It's really not worth all the trouble to you.

I'm just afraid I'll rely on a person too much
And lose a little bit of myself.
And that's what I'm trying not to do with so much thing happening around me.

Sometimes, I wonder
Who am I? How am I?
I actually forgot.
But people change.
I changed. And I know it.
But I still wonder.
How was the me last time?

I'm trying to change, to a better me.
But I'm progressing, little by little. :)
And of yeah,
Don't worry about me.
I'm strong, or, I'll just try to be strong.
My looks are safe,
So I guess no harm will come upon me.


你懂嘛
我就爱逞强
因为我懦弱够了
该学会坚强不依赖人了。

ღ Rewinding back to 2012 ღ

Gosh I'm so so so so sorry that I neglected the blog for soo long.
*Dust everywhere*

:) I should be posting bout year 2013 but..
I'm back to 19th December 2012
Yes, PMR results are out.

And I really am surprised.
Can't believe I got straight A's for PMR.
I was sooo sure that I would not get an A for chinese.
But yeah, who knows,
Either I am lucky, or the examiner was dead careless. ;目

And of course,
the last of PMR was celebrated with my wives,
and yeah,
the day where results are out also is celebrated with my wives.

We were like so high,
And I was the first to take my results. :)
I called up my mum and started crying.
I didn't think at all, that I will cry.
But when my mum congratulated me I just feel touched.
She never ever ever congratulated me on my exams.
It's just the "You can still improve" and "Why didn't get A" that I always hear.
But now, it's over.

So back to topic.
And of course they were late. =3=
And I went to Viva to take lunch with my two besties, ChiTeng and YihTong.
I love them too.
After that only we met up.
And this is the most memorable picture we took. xD
Same school bag for year 2013. YOSHHHHH

It's Valentine's Day today.
The last Valentine's Day for 2012.
14.12.2012

Such a beautiful date, and of course.
I'm spending it with some of the most important people that stepped into my life.
My wives of course and another two best friends. :)

We gathered up and took LRT to Pavilion.
In search of a secret mission, buying a jersey for an old friend.
:) It went out smoothly and we took loads of ugly and disgusting pictures.
Of course, it'll all be uploaded in Facebook in a while. And yeah, I'll have some in my blog too.
But for further details, just visit my Facebook.

If you mind, pictures are here. :3

At LRT station. :)

Annual Dinner 2012

We took quite a lon time preparing, rehearsing and stuff.
But the time we spent together was awesome.
It's just that I felt that I haven't put in my all.
And I somehow regret it.
Next year, I'll be putting my best best best foot forward.

And on the day, 08.12.2012
I'm feeling so nervous and stuff.
But let's let the pictures speak on behalf of me. :)

Cake. :) Oreo cheese

Our form 3 dance. xD Taeyang's Where you at

My ugly picture. :( Different colours all over my body hahahaah

YOH MAN 

My Sucky performance. Lots of mistakes. Sigh

GAMESSS

Ex- Committee's long table. 

Performance with AT, ACVSC and Chiteng <3 p="p">

Lookie at AT xD

Picture with Amanina. <3 p="p">

After that, some of us spent the night over at the hotel.

I ate cup noodles at 4AM in the morning. And woke up at 930AM. 

It was tiring but awesomely fun. 

And so, end of Annual Dinner 2012.

I got the back of my thigh and butt covered with bruises,

But for me, it's a memory, a mark of another significant event that happened in my life.

Holidays are finally here!

Yeahh! finally holidays are here!
Officially announcing the arrival of School Holidays. =]

And so, the busy and hectic life begins.
Annual Dinner preparations, Fighting for 100 hours duty, P courses to attend..
Fuiyoh! At least my holidays are not wasted.

Annual dinner discussion went pretty well.
We're kinda like, talk talk talk..
Finish then end up playing xD

OMAIGOSH! LOOK AT HER XD

Hahahaha she's so gonna kill me =]

All her epic pictures. xD

wheeeeeeeee

I'm so highhhh!!!!

Hahahaha

hmmm..

Btw, i guess that's all. 

Don't even know what to update. 

Just trying to make my blog looks updated. 

Hehehehe I guess that's all. Byebyeee!

ღ BBQ PARTY *ROCKK & ROLL

The starting of this new day.. was tiring.

I woke up at 4.20a.m

And rushed for duty in Padang Merbuk.

A 30KM Marathon

Hmm and my day continued with me sleeping at home.

And after that, I prepared myself to face the next challenging problem.

Choosing an outfit for the BBQ party organized by my tuition teacher!

Finally I decided with an outfit,

I reached tuition center expecting lots of people to be there.

But everyone else went off because I remembered the wrong time.

Phew lucky my history teacher was there. xD

He fetched me to the principal's house of BBQ party! WHEE

and so my super high and crazy day started. =]

And of course, the cam-whoring starts. 

Everyone is so desperate to eat, they sit on the floor BBQ-ing. xD

And after that we played lots of water games

And everyone got real wet,

yeahhh super wet! I was wet from head to toe.

Buckets and buckets of water came pouring down.. xD

But it was  fun. 

Pictures before the water game xD

Tuition closest guy friend. Yes, someone has a  crush on him.

And so.. Ends my post xD wheeee

It's always a good time xD

ღ The days after PMR

15.09.12

This is like, one of the most torturing day.

The others are like, MERDEKA all the way

And we, students who takes chinese exam

Will have to endure for one LAST day before it's our freedom.

They say:" No pain, No gain."

Taking chinese exam, is...

Mentally abusing for me.

And yeah, it's finally..........

16.09.12

Mmhmm, it's finally the last day of PMR.

For the whole Chinese exam

Basically, my mind is fully occupied by the outing straight after PMR.

Outing with my wives ღ

And yeah, Chinese exam is..

Shytty. ='(   *Forgive me for my rudeness*

But it is really shytty, 

Urm.. For me. Others did kinda well.

And yeah. It caused me to feel sad for like, a while?

But after that, I'm back to normal as I received a text message from my dear wifey.

It kinda boosted my feelings, so off I go to the bus station.

Yeah, A-L-O-N-E.

Sometimes, I think I'm a little weird.

I like to walk alone, do things alone, shop alone.

But sometimes, I don't like it.

Guess I have mood swings.

Haha! But it's nice to be alone sometimes.

At least have some time with myself, think about the problems I've been facing and trying to sort them out in my mind.

Hmm.. I think everyone's like that right?

Need some time for themselves.

No need to do anything, just sit alone, in silence.

Calm yourself and yeah.. figure things out.

And so... I've waited for more than 30 minutes at the LRT bus station. 

Wives' bus is slow. Super slow. Like crawling snail. :)

And after that we went together to Times Square.

Straight to Neway!!!

At first it was kinda like.. EMO time?

When we three started to confide with each other.

"Chinese Paper HARD ah"

"Yiyerrrr later got B ah"

Hahaha thinking back our conversation, 

sometimes I just feel like ROFL.

I'm glad having them with me.

When I'm feeling down and stuff.

They just have the ability to kick off my emo feelings

And bring a smile back to my face.

With their stupid conversation. 

And yeah. 

And the moment we settled down with the menu

We started screaming like... &^%$#$^&*%^&

OWGAWD My ears. xD

But it's memorable. 

Because PMR's finally over..

Hmmm excuses maybe?

And so..

"A Picture Says A Thousand Words"

Let the pictures do the job. 

all the food... ><

I wonder what's with her. So behsong me taking her picture xD

Duckie Face!!! EPIC

Lookie at me. SS

We sang for 5 hours straight, 

then off to tuition.

=]

You guys must be wondering why after PMR still wanna go tuition.

Yeah don't ask me that question.

Cause seriously, I don't know how to answer you. (>.<)

And so. This is the official start of THE DAYS AFTER PMR.

*pops crackers*