Surprisingly heart-broken

Yesterday was fall-in
When for it, without expecting anything bad will happen

After fall-in, we went to KH block to gather
Then secretary talk bout our BFA
The results are out

And.. so few ppl passed
And when it's my turn
I'm so nervous..
Gosh.. Palms are sweating and stuffs like that
And then sec. says: " we can see your hard work but you failed written test "

I think it's something like that
Coz after the word BUT
I knew what was going to happen
I didn't know why did I cry
But tears just can't stop flowing

This is the 1st time I've cried for exams
Last time I was like.. Who cares bout exams
Until I've joined St. John in Cochrane
I've aimed high enough
Barely missing even one Wednesday and Saturday meeting
Fridays fall-in too.
NEver once I missed it

I didn't know since when St. John starts to become part of my heart, part of my life
I take it so much more important than any other things
I studied so hard for written test, staying up past midnight trying to cram everything in First Aid Book into my small brain

I'm not that good in memorizing things you know.
I've even did many notes about everything in First Aid Book
I can't say that I might not forgotten some things inside there
But I daresay I put in an effort to study St. John
To strive further, to excel in it

Never once I've tried so hard for any school exams, even piano exams.
Like I cared so much about them, I don't really cared bout them
I can say that BFA exam is the most important exam, the only one that I truly cared about
Sec. says I've passed my practical, which proves I'm a good first aider
Even though I've passed all my practical,
I didn't passed my written test

I was longing to get that collar badge
Can't remember how many nights I've spent reading, making notes, memorizing first aid..
I've lost count, or maybe didn't care so much
As if it's because of St. John, It's worth it
St. John attracted me a lot

Now, I'll had to wait for the Re-BFA next week
Even if I do pass next week, IF
I guess a lil part of my heart will still be unsatisfied

Why?
Those that're not so active, not putting much effort in studying first aid can past it
Why can't I?
I've already passed the hard bit.
The strict officer actually gave me a PASS for my CPR and choking
Why can't I pass written test
That's the only thing that gave me a FAIL

I've cried like one hour?
I think it affected my history paper. quite a lot
I've like, weep, for 3 times..
It's actually lucky i have my handkerchief with me

To be honest, I've aim for a president post next year
I guess this will vanish if I fail the 2nd time
I've learnt a lesson

Never give in high hopes on anything
The higher you hope for, the more hurting you'll be


Please pray for me yah.
So I'll past the 2nd exam
Or else.. I'll have to cry my eyeballs out again~

BFA test (Practical)

Today's a big daY
BFA test...

My BFA test..
Goes along quite okay..
Only my CPR, choking...
CRAPPY

CPR
I've forgotten to call for ambulance, didn't compress the chest deep enough, and answer wrong the question " how deep do you compress"

It should be 1.5 to 2 inches..
I said 1 to 1.5 inches
SHIT man

Choking.. No matter how hard I do the Heimlich Maneuver
The abdomen just won't budge
Haiz...
Just feel like sighing the whole day


I really regret I went in as the 1st form 1
Stupid me..
And I went to the strict officer
FOR GOD SAKE
I shouldn't have went in so early..

When I reach home I tell mummy bout that thing..
And I've told her I regret for not going to the other officer (which was the not so focus wan)
As he was talking on the phone, sms-INg, and doing other things..
Mummy consoled me  And said:


It's good you went to the strict officer, in that way, it'll be harder to pass but you can show to everyone you're good enough to pass. Not like the others, that may went to the not so focus officer, and pass, but maybe do wrong during the CPR exam.

Not that she's saying everyone.. but maybe some.

Just don't talk bout the BFA test to me kay.. I really feel like crying..
Just that I don't think there's the need to cry..
So, I'll end this post now..

Hope my CPR and choking will pass..

St. John meeting BFA test

So...
Today St. John meeting..
Fun, exciting, and tiring

It's fun because of everything
Exciting because of trial exam results
And tiring although I'm enjoying

My trial BFA PAST~~~
MUAHAHAHA
Overjoyed la I

Today, games - physical games


1st Station
duck walk & frog jump..
We did so many duck walk and frog jump.. T^T
My legs.. numb already

2nd Station
All kind of things

Erm.. Starting, 20 elephant spin, then roll on floor until middle of badminton court, star jump 10 times, roll to the end of badminton court, 20 elephant spin, roll back to middle of badminton court, PUP (Push-up-position), and hang on there.
I was like a lil stressed.. coz our squad leader can only stop his PUP
Then my elephant spin is quite fast la.. Then very dizzy, luckily MIC keep holding me
I like drunk ppl only.. Hand swaying, floor turning..
OMG...
Luckily not feeling like vomiting

3rd Station
Monkey Bar

We have to do PUP and hang there until it's our turn to go on top of the monkey bar and do 10 push up there, then we have to climb down and find a partner to do human trolley back to where we've started.
Then, hang again in PUP position

4th Station
All kinds of things. 1st, we have to human trolley on the road.. Very far distance also.. Quite la.. Then we have to commando crawl at the red bricks path.. My hand all red red de... Then okay le.. Ming li hurt her hands.. haiz.. Meimei, sayang ah...

5th Station
Tank
We have go in and out of the tank.. Got one hole very small wan.. Luckily I can pass.. I this fat also can pass eh~ Happy
Then we do push up with our legs on the tank.. Painful
Then sit up 30 times


We finished everything the earliest leh~ MUAHAHAHA

Tomorrow BFA exam liao..
Actually got confidence de.. But then the officers very scary.. (according to seniors they scold wan)
*sob*
HAHA

I wish everyone will pass
We must wear collar badge together eh~

I hope next year can become president of the sesi petang.. But then kinda hard..
But I'll try my best~
Adrienne, GOGOGO

Gosh... I'm addicted...

Gosh.. I'm really addicted..
What happened to me!!!!!!!!

In a sudden, I'm addicted to Restaurant City in Facebook.
I'm suddenly soooOOOOoooo obsessed with it..
Everyday playing, trying to level up UP UPPPP~

*chuckles*
Yesterday we have First Aid Course in HQ
It's conducted by officer
And, for the 1st time
I kissed a mannequin
Odd right??

I was chose by the seniors to try after a few Form 2s tried it.
Cool.. I've never kissed a mannequin..
Btw, BFA exams are really approaching already~
I'm trying real hard to memorize all the things in my First Aid book..

How I hope my brain is a sponge
Then I'll be able to squeeze everything inside
Let's hope I won't fail my BFA Exam.
I'm really into becoming a president for next year's afternoon session St. John activities~

Guess I'll have to end my post halfway dangling like that,
But the distraction from Restaurant City is tooooo Much...
BYebye~~



P.S. I NEED ALMOND   *in restaurant City* 
Please help~ Thanks~