Confidence And Depression.

It's just sometimes I feel like I am so weird.
Being confident is in my nature.
I'm confident in things I'm doing,
But nowadays,
It just seems like it's different somehow.

And I really wonder where is the old me.
Maybe it's time I learn more from people,
And keep my flaws with me.
Waiting for the day I'll be flawless.

Today,
I can't see the radiant sun shining in my room.
It's raining in the morning.
Now I know why is it so comfy. :)

I love rain.
The cooling touch of the rain,
Just sweeps away some of my thoughts.
And there I am,
Thinking too much again.

Being confident.
I guess it's a good thing.
But being overconfident ain't a good thing to do.
So now,
I'll try to restrain myself.
Watch me grow, watch me improve.
:)

Hmm.. Nowadays I'm kinda into blogging again. 

It's just a place where I dump my frustration and misery into.

Using words to replace thoughts,

Changing thoughts into words.

Not like there'll be people reading though. 

I barely see my own blog.

I just update update then I'm off.

There's so much homework I worry I'll die doing them.

:)  

So yeah,

I'm off. 

Someone to talk every night. :')

Somehow I'm just grateful I can be myself in front this person.
Saying what I want, saying out my mind.
And of course, being somehow rude but in a funny way of rude.

:目
Sometimes I think it's just so not worth it for that person to this thing to me
I'm not worth it you know.
That's what I told that person.
But nothing's changed.

But I'm just still being cautious
Afraid of saying something wrong.
I'm afraid. Of what people see in me.
But I'm better now. It was worse.
:(
But there's still some barrier I put upon myself
Somehow leaving a little gap.
A barrier which somehow couldn't be penetrate.

Sometimes,
I hope you won't be so caring towards me,
Don't worry about me.
I'll be just fine, really.
It's really not worth all the trouble to you.

I'm just afraid I'll rely on a person too much
And lose a little bit of myself.
And that's what I'm trying not to do with so much thing happening around me.

Sometimes, I wonder
Who am I? How am I?
I actually forgot.
But people change.
I changed. And I know it.
But I still wonder.
How was the me last time?

I'm trying to change, to a better me.
But I'm progressing, little by little. :)
And of yeah,
Don't worry about me.
I'm strong, or, I'll just try to be strong.
My looks are safe,
So I guess no harm will come upon me.


你懂嘛
我就爱逞强
因为我懦弱够了
该学会坚强不依赖人了。

ღ Rewinding back to 2012 ღ

Gosh I'm so so so so sorry that I neglected the blog for soo long.
*Dust everywhere*

:) I should be posting bout year 2013 but..
I'm back to 19th December 2012
Yes, PMR results are out.

And I really am surprised.
Can't believe I got straight A's for PMR.
I was sooo sure that I would not get an A for chinese.
But yeah, who knows,
Either I am lucky, or the examiner was dead careless. ;目

And of course,
the last of PMR was celebrated with my wives,
and yeah,
the day where results are out also is celebrated with my wives.

We were like so high,
And I was the first to take my results. :)
I called up my mum and started crying.
I didn't think at all, that I will cry.
But when my mum congratulated me I just feel touched.
She never ever ever congratulated me on my exams.
It's just the "You can still improve" and "Why didn't get A" that I always hear.
But now, it's over.

So back to topic.
And of course they were late. =3=
And I went to Viva to take lunch with my two besties, ChiTeng and YihTong.
I love them too.
After that only we met up.
And this is the most memorable picture we took. xD
Same school bag for year 2013. YOSHHHHH