I really don't understand why I chose depression as the topic of my oral test.
Maybe because I remembered the two friends who brought me back from it.
Maybe I once went through it and I learnt how to be optimistic.
Not wanting to remember those past.
But I think that it's time to reflect and of course,
To put all effort in this topic.
I searched for quite a lot of information.
And I guess verbal abusing that causes depression will do.
Because that was the main reason I went through depression.
But my kind of depression was just minor.
I never did much to hurt myself.
And I did not hurt others.
I just went through slight depression and felt that I was useless.
That's all. I don't feel like talking, I get mad at people all the times.
I vent my anger at non-living things, I cry into my pillow.
Then I met friends who takes me for who I am.
The ones who control me just enough for me to calm down
And not go over the borders.
I never knew my limits last time.
It was them, who stayed by me.
We argue we fight we talk we cry together.
We're there for each other.
We call up each other even in midnight just to make sure they are okay.
We cry over small and big matters
We trust each other a lot, so much that when we see each other,
There's always tears.
Trust. That's why there's tears.
Because that's when you feel so secure and tears can just flow so naturally.
I love them. And without them telling, I know they love me.
And that's just all I need.
And I wrote a poem while thinking of them, and also the verbal abuse I went through which I can't handle.
They're not bloggers but they visit occasionally.
I do hope they sees this.
I love both of you, a lot.
So much that I can't describe. :)
And so, here's the poem.
" A Glimpse Of Hope"
A side you can't see,
Is one's most hurting side,
Not knowing what's hurtful,
There you go, mocking someone.
A person not being cared,
Tears rolling down the cheeks,
A rip, a gash, a blood dripping heart,
Expressions expressed in that muffled cry.
Hate is a game that cheats,
Depression is a torture that destroys,
Happiness is a fruit beared yourself,
Confidence is a self-esteem to fight depression.
So how do you get from here to there?
Well, you must first believe you can,
There's always a glimpse of hope,
But it's your life and it's in your hands.
Take small steps and before you know it you're there,
You'll be standing tall, telling people you're no longer scared,
You'll tell people to stop verbal abusing,
And all you need is a few supportive friends, and your own optimistic heart.
是你们让我成长
学会不是一切理所当然
在我喘不过气的那瞬间
是你们陪伴着我
所有我承受过的挫折
你们仍然记得
还给予我鼓励
谢谢你们的陪伴
让我变得更坚强
我真的爱你们
符慧芳
吴佩琳
